Deep waters

Deep waters, like deep wounds, hide a multitude of things.

Out in the middle of the ocean, where I love and long to be pretty much most of the time, life is silent, peaceful, and yet if we have any deep wounds, the noise is louder than the bass bins at an all night rave party.

These deep wounds, painful memories, rampaging thoughts, overwhelming emotions are there for us to deal with; brushing them under the carpet, thinking they will go away is foolish; but then again they do say ‘there is nowt as foolish as folk’

Unless our thoughts, memories and emotions are bringing us joy and happiness, leading us to inner peace, then they will slowly poison us from the inside out, resulting in dis-ease on an individual and community level.

Take the content of my next series of books ‘The Sacral Series’, which explores a multitude of subjects including, but not limited to cultural diversity, racism, sexual abuse, rape, religion and corruption of our global government and legal systems.

Not light reading by anyone’s imagination, but a series of books which address issues which need addressing and highlighting so we can all discover solutions for ourselves, as well as our immediate families, communities and nations.

Since my divorce, and being told “I would find it hard for someone to love me” I have, believe it or not, played small. I have hidden parts of myself to not only make myself more palatable, whilst being on a journey of immense healing, but also to protect myself.

Talking about some of the subjects I have wanted to talk about would have invited in the kind of conversations I was not ready to have, due to a number of issues going on in my private life.

I have shared some of these challenges publicly, to bring awareness of situations, such as the whole Scotland Saga, which I wrote about in my 3rd book Crossing The Line.

Why did I share what happened?

To help educate others. To help others understand anything can happen to any of us at any time. None of us are immune.

And I shared because for us to protect ourselves from the harm caused by the State, which encompasses the police and social care system, what my family and I went through needed to be shared.

Is it the system which is flawed though? Or is it the people who work within the system?

Both if you ask me.

And here is why.

As with any organisation, it is made up of people, and people come with a whole heap of views, ideas, and opinions; which they gained from borrowed beliefs, values and their own experiences in life.

Together these individuals create laws, rules and processes based on who they are, and what they think is best for others. How do these people know what is best for others though?

Most of what these people know and understand comes from a text book and institutionalised brainwashing from the education system, which is propagated by a government who wish to remain in power and have control over the people.

Very few of the organisations I was hired to work with, both in the public and private sector around the world, had people from a variety of backgrounds, hence why I was hired.

Yes, they had the ‘token ethnic’ or the ‘right religion or racial profile’ to fulfil a quotient which is required by a particular funding body, or a preventative measure against discrimination in the workplace, but they didn’t understand the vastness of cultural diversity and global communication.

The work I have done around the world in the arenas of cultural diversity, politics and leadership have not been palatable for many people, and then people wonder why there are so many problems in the world.

Many people will associate the name Moana with the sickly sweet Disney movie Moana, but this book is more about the deep waters of the soul, the deep healing of a woman traumatised by rejection, rape and a toxic relationship laced with subtle narcissism of the worst kind.

Over the years, I have been called a dolphin or a mermaid due to the amount of swimming I do, and the length of time I can stay under water, a name which has stuck, and been grossly misunderstood.

When I embarked on this global book tour of mine, there were many reasons for doing so; the desire to live at sea, harnessing the power of the ocean, being the main reasons. A dream I’d had since I was eight years old.

Coming up with a name for my second upcoming series of books, The Mermaid’s Guide, a series of books on leadership and cultural diversity, gender issues and environmental awareness was easy. It was fun, catchy and as with a lot of aspects of what I write, multifaceted.

My kind of mermaid has nothing to do with the long blonde hair and big breasts, nor does she have anything to do with the world of Disney. Combine the political awareness of Banksy with the depths of the ocean, and you are a lot closer to my kind of mermaid.

Moana may mean deep waters, or from the sea, or far from the reef, depending on the area of the Pacific you are referring to, but this Moana is going to take you to the depth of your soul, make you see things differently, and make you realise all is not as it seems on the surface.

The Sacral Series brings you 9 true life stories, ones which have been shared with me over the years, and of course ones which have been trusted to me to bring them forth, whilst also protecting the identity of those within the covers of the books.

Within the covers of each book, you will also discover the various different ways to heal from sexual trauma from experts such as Sandra Rolus, an energetic trauma release teacher and trainer.

This collaboration with experts from around the world, in various different aspects of the social issues raised in this series has been a long time coming: and let’s be honest, this isn’t just an individual problem we are facing, this is a social issue, one of global proportions.

What will be interesting is the conversations which follow, the number of copies sold of each book, especially when TV programmes such as Special Victims Unit and Criminal Minds can go on to become some of the most watched programmes and purchased boxsets in the Western world.

Knowing these 9 stories are real life stories, and the stories of many more men, women and children from around the world from all walks of life, will that put off the readers? Or will it make them even more powerful?

Only those of you who know about these books and choose to buy them will know, and then be able to choose to make a difference in the world with your recommendations and reviews.

Moana is available from the 22nd September 2020, and already available to order

Accompanying each book is a powerful podcast, co-hosted by the one and only Adam R Walton of The Mental Mastery Alliance , a podcast host with the skill and intellect, sensitivity and courage to be able to hold space for the kind of conversations that need to be had.

I am both honoured and delighted to be able to serve with him, and bring about the global change that is much needed.

The question is, will you be brave enough to join us and dive into the deep waters with us?

How writing changes the world

Discovering fire was a game changer for humanity, but have you ever really considered how writing changes the world?

And can change your world?

From cave drawings, to fossilised communications, to ‘ugg uggs’ around the newly discovered campfire, humans have always communicated.

We see it now with the look of love between parent and child, lover to lover and from the way we treat our own bodies; all communications, and all changing the way in which the world is evolving.

Before the invention of writing as we know it today, Ancient Egyptians would use hieroglyphics to tell stories.

For some of us the energetic language of light is also a powerful communication tool. For some of us, this last sentence has us frowning. Language of light?  What on earth is that?

As communities, we have passed on stories, lessons and legends, of our ancestors and about our lives, and daily happenings for millenia.

But what stories do we tell today?

Parents reading to their children is becoming a lost art, and when was the last time three and four generations of family sat together around the table over a meal, sharing their weekly news with one another?

We lose ourselves in fantasy, with many adults reading children’s books just to escape the world of ‘adulting’ because they are tired of it all.

Great quality adult books are sadly lacking, unless of course you want to read the latest love story, or escape into the mind of a cop or a killer, with crime novels becoming a cop out (pun intended) and vampire stories leaving you wanting to roll your eyes louder than a two year old throwing a tantrum.

Humans by our very nature are explorers, seekers of the new and exciting.

It is why so many want a quick fix for the depression they face, or a quick fix to the pain they are enduring, or that latest pair of Jimmy Choo’s or Louboutin’s.

We want the high.

We want our mind, body and souls stimulated, but so many take the easy route; and then wonder why there is no long lasting fulfillment.

Many women inject all kinds of poisons into their face wanting to slow down the ageing process, afraid of who they are becoming, unable to accept who they truly are.

It is all communication.

Some of it more explicit than others, but still communication all the same.

Before we had writing, stories were contained within our minds and as age set in, unless we had shared them with our young, then they would be lost forever.

One of the reasons I loved living out in Egypt and sitting with the Beladi is because they would still sit around together as a family and drink shay, telling stories and laughing.

Nowadays so many rely on films, or audio books, choosing to occupy their time with other tasks whilst listening, but never really being present in the moment with the words.

The gift of reading an actually physical book is that you get to be still, absorbed in the moment.  Your body gets to rest whilst your mind is captivated by what you read… well that’s the plan of every great author anyway!

To captivate you, to take you on a journey, leaving you with the ever lingering connection to the characters, real or fictional.

And it is this reason I love to work with clients who wish to share their own journey, captivating their audiences both inside and outside of their book with the Author Blueprint they create.

How writing changes the world, depends on whether it is in our journalling, our blogging, the articles we write, the programmes we write for screen, stage and airwaves. 

It depends on the energy we bring to it, the flow, the vision we create, as well as the intention.

When we explore how writing changes the world within us, our families, our audiences and the ripple effect which our writing creates, and will continue to create long after they have left this world, is a powerful exercise.

Whether we are authors of movies, stage shows, books, or stories woven through the airwaves, our writing has a profound affect on everyone.

When we write our stories, we change the world.

When we write our futures into existence with our journalling, we change our own world, and those directly connected to us.

We get to inspire ourselves, release ourselves from the past, and in this magical process we really truly set ourselves free, something no one else can take away from us.

For many right now, not being able to go outside, mix with family and friends, go out wherever they want, whenever they want, they feel their freedom has been taken away; but no one can take away our freedom when we truly accept who we are.

With the onset of writing, the recording of taxes, land and slave ownerships we become enslaved by those who believed they were better than others, far superior, and so the pedestal of arrogance was born in a whole new way.

With this power came political power, famines, droughts, wars of so many kinds.  Those who couldn’t read or write were made to feel worthless, and so came the ever increasing spiral of mental health issues we see today.

In countries where there is political instability and mass poverty, mental health issues are fewer than those in the countries of ‘so-called’ politcial stability.

Around the world, people of all social classes and levels of intellect read something and never question what they read.

Take the regular Terms and Conditions businesses send you for use of their products, pages and pages of legal jargon you can’t understand, but sign anyway.

Dr’s prescribe drugs to people on an hourly basis, and how many people actually look at the ingredients and understand the impact they have on our bodies? 

PhD students research from research papers, which were written from other research papers, and very few PhD students actually go and look at new innovations and go out into the field to do more research.

This results in the information becoming stagnant and overly academic; making many people feel stupid and therefore unwilling to learn, for the fear of looking stupid.

Now why on earth would I, as an author and author coach be highlighting these flaws in the written word?

Well because with writers such as Matt Ridley writing high level science in a way that the lay people can read, and business leaders such as Jim Collins writing business books such as Good to Great, they dymistify the jargon others use to keep others small, and afraid.

Writing is a powerful tool, not just for those reading the words, but also for those writing.  

For me, and other writers, those who do it because we NEED to do it, it is therapeutic.  Why do I say I NEED to do it, because with the way my mind works, if I do not write, I feel heavy, my head becomes foggy, I feel frustrated, it’s almost like I am drowning.

Sometimes the things I write, I write without realising.  I remember starting to write.  I remember the first word, but then I feel like I am just watching myself right, or feel like I am in a trance, and the words just flow. 

I call it Unconscious Conscious Creation. A state of openess, which allows the messages to pass through you from a higher source. 

Which when you think about it, we are the modern day Prophets.  Now before those of you who are deeply religious start wanting to chastise and burn me at the stake for blasphemy, hear me out.

Prophets are merely messengers.  They too went into trance like states to deliver a message from on high.  We are told in EVERY single Holy Text that God, Allah, Dieu, etc is within us.

Christianity and Judaism tell us He breathed life into us.

In Islam we are told that Allah is closer to us than our jugular vein.  In Hinduism we are blessed with God’s eye, our third eye, and so on and so forth.

So it surely stands to reason then, that those of us who are called to write from a higher place of consciousness, and have the ability to unconsciously create powerful content, are simply tapping into our God given gifts?

Gifts of being messengers, of prophecy? Take the books written by Doris Lessing or the cult classic 1984 written by George Orwell, which has been playing out for years, even more so in the last couple of months.

For many of us, the more we learn, the more we question, the more we understand and connect the dots, the more powerful our writing becomes. 

It’s not rocket science or brain surgery, well… it is kind of brain surgery because we are developing parts of our brains and connecting dots and neuropathways which in many ways would never have connected.

When I started reading about Islam, I loved the fact the first world written in the Qur’aan was ‘Ikra’ which for those of you who do not read and understand Arabic means ‘read’. The word ‘wisdom’ is the second most used word in the Qur’aan after Allah, and ranks a lot higher than prayer or charity in all holy texts.

Ask yourself then, why is it those who follow their forefathers of religion blindly never read and question the Holy texts they profess to believe in so much? When they never question what is written, simply follow men in long robes who will send God’s wrath upon them if they even think about thinking about questionning The Book.

Writing a book about your life is one of the most transformational gifts you can give yourself, and the world. 


Because you get present to who you are.

You get to see how far you have come on your lives journey, the adventures and misadventures, the highs and the lows; and you also get present to who and what is important to you.

You get to gift yourself the ultimate gift of freedom; the freedom of your past, and the freedom of needing other people’s approval of you.

Freedom isn’t about going outside and doing what you want, nor is it being able to sail around the world.  It is BEing who you truly are and being proud of who you are without the need of approval from someone else.

You get the opportunity to leave a sacred text of your ilfe behind for your family, and if you choose to go on to publish and sell it for others, you get to gift others an insight into the human story, and you help others understand they too are not the only ones going through the challenges they are facing.

You gift your readers hope, inspiration and lessons they may never have had; and that in itself could save someone’s life.

And isn’t that a beautiful way to change the world with your writing, the gift of saving someone’s life?

If you woud like to write your own book, but are not sure on how to get started then there are so many options available.

There are hundreds of writing courses, writing coaches and book coaches out there for you to choose from.

If however, you want to use your story, knowledge and expertise to create a positive and profound difference in the world whilst making profit to then re-invest into creating an even bigger impact, then please contact me and let’s see how I as an author coach can support you.

In the meantime, enjoy the words you read, just make sure you choose wisely what you read, because when you read inspiring, informative and great content, then living to laugh and laughing to live becomes a lot easier!

(And healthier!)

Ciao for now my lovelies,

Dawn x

P.S. The photo with this entry is one taken having just been released from a Scottish Police cell after I was held illegally for two and a half days without questionning and without being told what I was being held for. Feeling the wind and the sun on my face that day was such an amazing feeling; and if I felt this after just two and a half days, imagine what it must feel like after two and a half years, or two and a half decades… especially after false imprisonment.

You can read the full story of the #ScotlandSaga in my last book Crossing The Line